Oh no I think I lost my bladder!

Ok, I know weird title right!
Well I read all these blogs and they are super awesome!
They run and that inspires me to want to run.

I am going to get there but after I go to the doctor.

You see, as I was running on my treadmill yesterday, I could of swore that my bladder was going to fall out. Yes as you can guess what I mean by this, happened!
 I hate it.  I have two children YES! But geez lousie all these other people that run have children and are fine I guess. I mean I don't go up and ask them if they are worried about peeing themselves while running.

Hmmmm.... No I won't do that.

So I have scheduled an appointment with the Doc and see what she says and before anyone tells me I do kegals. Not working :(

My goal is to do 5 5K runs next year.

My other reason for my slow approach to running, is I was never a runner and making time to go run.  When I get home at night I don't have time or anyone to keep the kids while I go run.  It is too dark in the morning. But I am dedicated to running! I CAN DO IT!!!

I know excuses excuses! But I will surpass the excuses and reach my goal!

More about ME, MYSELF and I..

So back in the days of high school when you had no real worries except for homework and what girl was being a hoe and trying to move in on your boyfriend, I was the one hiding in the back because I was always the bigger one of my group of girls that I ran around with.  I don't remember wearing anything under the size of 10.  I grew up and still live in a very rural area. No Wal-Mart or clothing stores close. to help a bigger full sized girl. It tooks 30 minutes to get to them.

I was Homecoming Queen my Senior Year (Oh yeah!)

I starting dating my husband my Sophomore year and he was a Senior. He was a farmboy and I loved that.  I went fishing, help feed cattle, hunting, and all that kind of farming stuff. After my senior year in the fall we moved in together and got engaged in November.

I was probably in the 150s this entire time.  We got married 9/18/04. Getting close the 10 year mark.

On June 1, 2006, my husband went to the doctor and found out he had testicular cancer, the following day he had surgery to remove the mass.  He caught it very early and is fine now.  He took radiation for 6 weeks and we got pregnant in July of 2006.

March 8, 2007, was the day that my heart was completely captured by Jace Pearl aka Jacer.  He was absolutely perfect in every way.  After I had Jacer I weighed in at 188.  I lost 26 lbs. doing Weight Watchers and nursing helped me tremendously.

The youngest pic I have on facebook of Jacer! His 2nd birthday!

Me in a tankini (the only suit there is)

October 16, 2009

November 2009 (me and my Bestie singing our hearts our!)

My weight changed alot for the next few years never going under 150 lbs.  I just got stuck in all these ruts and made up tons of excuses. I FED MY FACE IS THE REALITY OF IT! I guess I just didn't care.

My husband and I have our problem and we had major problem in early 2010 and we separated and I filed for divorce. Worse times of both of our lives. Jacer's life was turned upside down. I got the smallest I have been during this time. I got down to 142 lbs. but the worse was possible through stress and not eating.  My husband also lost alot of weight during this time.

May 2010 (My younger sister Katie Graduation)

Me  in a bikini (I want that back) I loved that bikini. June 2010

Finally we both came to our senses a couple of months later and we decided we were both being stupid and were going to get through this time together not the easy way out and on our own.  Then we both got our appetites  back and I gained it all back quickly.

Moving my sis to Mizzou

 Sept. 2010 (CHEERING ON THOSE MIZZOU TIGERS)

December 2010 (was a month preggos and didn't know)

I got to the 170s very quickly. Around Thanksgiving, I was up to 172 and in January found I was pregnant! I got up to 192 while pregnant. 

And I thought I looked cute!! What was I thinking?!?

On August 3, 2011, James Lucas aka Monkey came into our lives and my heart was captured by yet another boy! 

James Lucas (Monkey)

I have struggled the last year with getting this weight off.  I did WW right after I had him and thought with nursing it would fall off but it didn't I lost 14 lbs.  Then I stopped WW and counted calories and went to the gym and nothing seemed to work. My sister-in-law did WW after her second child and lost a gob of weight and looked wonderful and I was jealous and so proud of her. I kept thinking that I could do that but I never pushed myself!  I guess the real problem was I hadn't had my WTF (What the F**!!) moment yet.  

New Years Eve 2012 (173 lbs)

We go to a lake close to us all summer long and love it! 

My boy skiing (5 years old!!) So proud!

Monkey penned up!

Chillin' on the pontoon!

Vacation Aug. 2012

I started this blog after I was on Pinterest one day and came across www.mamalaughin.com blog. Big Shout out Thank you to her!!! Fell in love with it and her story.  She is very inspiring and from there I went. I joined Mama Laughlin's Fit Club on facebook and started reading some many blogs. (I hope to get my favorites listed once I get this blogging figured out) and I hope to get to become close friends with other bloggers. You all are awesome. Some many other people are going through the same thing and now I can communicate my story to everyone also. It helps to write it out. 

I am back on WW and doing great this time around. I started again on September 13th, 2012 and have lost 5.2 lbs already. I am doing 31 days of being Jillian Michael's Biotch and am on day 5. I am mentally prepared and have had the WTF moment when you son can grab your fat rolls you know something is wrong and I am tired of leaning over and my stomach flab hanging! I can do this! I GOT THIS!!! 

Here is what I am going to be by next summer at the lake

Watch for in the Summer of 2012 I will wear a bikini once again and I will ROCK IT!!

It has been a day...

What a day it has been..
Glad it is almost 5:00..
Ready to rip my eyeballs out..
Lock myself in the basement...

At work today, I have been pulled in 3 directions, with all 3 bosses needing something done, and leaving me piles (work for attorneys and prosecutor). Then Hubby calls we are getting beef today from the Locker (Hallelujah!!!!!) But that means getting my freezer organized when I get home for it.  I just wish I could be a stay at home mom/wife!! But oh well. I would go crazy with no adult conversation.

On the forefront the WW, eating healthy, exercising, being Jillian's biotch at 5:15 in the morning are going wonderful!!

Not much today, tired, crabby and ready to get the heck of dodge!

MUAH!!

P.S. If you haven't go over to www.mamalaughlin.com and read her blog today! Love it and so true. I am a pretty cool wife, but makes me realize that hubby needs male bonding also! And I would never withhold that from him because I would be punishing myself!

Mama gets a Purple Sticker and kid gets a yellow card....

Yesterday was the start of my 31 days of being Jillian Michaels' Biotch! I got up at 5:30 a.m. and put myself at the mercy of her!! I did it and it was tough. Not going to lie.  I moved up to Level 2 since I had been doing Level 1 for 10 days.  I was a sweating mess when I finish and this morning I went downstairs and brought up the fan and I still was sweating terrible. But I got to put my sticker on October 1.  I also got to today too but I didn't get a pic of that.

My measurements for the beginning and before pics!! I plan on having a transformation by day 31!

Waist: 36 1/2 in.              Hips:  41 in.            Bust: 35 in.
Right Leg: 23 in.              Left leg: 23 in.
Right Arm: 12 in.             Left leg: 12 in.          Weight: 165.6

I have been doing great with weight watchers. Kinda had a bad day on Saturday but we were in Kansas City and at a wedding. I didn't eat cake but they had cookies.  They were my husband's great grandma's brown sugar cookies with icing! YUMMMMMY!! 

We had a great time in Kansas City. The 5K Walk for Celiac was great. My boys did not want to go at first but they enjoyed it once we got there! 

Jacer loved his shirt and yes Monkey has his thumb in his mouth and if you look closer I am sure his hand is down his pants.  (That is signature pose)  

We got to go the Big Bass Pro as Jacer says.  I got to sit as soon as you walk in and hold a sleeping baby which in turn made me fall asleep! Nothing like sleeping at Bass Pro! 

I did not get to try any Kansas City BBQ.  Thank you KayLynn from kaylynnsreality.blogspot.com for your suggestion. Maybe next time we go I will get to try one! 

Here we are ready for the wedding, forgot my camera so only had my phone!

(And yes my boys all matched in green)\

(Monkey was so tired at the reception he conked out)

Sunday was a long day with driving home, laundry and hubby slept most of the way home and was on the couch for most of the afternoon until he had to go do chores! I skipped on going to those.  (We have cattle)

Now to the part of my oldest getting a yellow card.  He goes to church on Monday nights.  So when I got home last night (had to hurry to get around for a visitation), I went through his backpack and checked his folder where it list the color they finished for the day.  Green is the color that you start on and he has stayed on green (since preschool and summer school).  He has got one other yellow this year for talking in the hallway.  But this time the teacher wrote what happened.  He had tackled a kid and lied to her about it. I was not a happy mama.  I don't want to have a kid that is a bully.  When we asked what happened he hummed hulled around and told us he didn't remember.  He finally told us they were playing around and that he doesn't know why he lied.  He had to go to bed 15 minutes earlier  and no tv, but the going to bed early was a joke, since I was reading to him the same time as usual.  He did get no tv last night.  It is so hard to follow through with punishments sometime. I just hope we got through to him that we were disappointed in him.  We never yelled at him just explained why you don't do that and that you never lie to your teachers or parents about anything.  (cause you know I never did do that :) ) 

Muah!!!

Have a wonderful day!!!

Weight loss and KC HERE WE COME....

I did my weigh in yesterday morning first thing,

naked, 

and after I went pee.

I was down 3 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I am at 166.4.

This is a great motivator and so is everyone over at Mama Laughlin's Fit Camp and all the blogs that I read. I read www.mamalauglin.com daily and absolutely love it.  She is hilarious and such an inspiration to me. She is someone that reminds me of where I am and if she can do I can do it. 

I have made my list of of my October goals!

I have been doing Jillian Michaels 30 day shred Level 1 for 10 days and that is not skipping a day.  I am so proud of myself.  I am going to start Level 2 on Monday when I start the 31 days of Jillian!! I just can't wait.  

I will taking tomorrow off from her since we are leaving town for the weekend.  We are participating in the Raise Awareness for Celiac 5K in Kansas City. I will be walking as we are taking our two boys with us.  But at least I will still get in some cardio.  We have a wedding to go that night and then home Sunday.  As much as I like getting away, it is always nice to get back home.  But it should be a nice little vaca for the weekend. My oldest is so excited to go swimming.

We are wanting to eat some good KC BBQ while we are there. Anyone know of any great places to try?? 

MUAHH!! 

Kidsssss.............

I love my boys with all my heart. But there are still days where I want to pull my hair out and that has been my night.  They are both in bed sleeping now.  But geez.....

One set in time out for 10 minutes. The other one was cranky and clinging to me all night.  Don't get me wrong I love to cuddle but when you have supper to make and things to get ready for the next day, that is hard to do with on on your hip. 

Jacer, who is 5, is hard headed and he never listens the 1st, 2nd or 3rd time you tell him something, I have to tell him about 10 times to do something.  UGGGHH.

Anyone got any ideas for me?? Let me know your tricks on this.

Well I am going to go run it out on the treadmill.....

I must get up to go do this..

I will run tonight....

OOOOHHHHH.......

So sleepy.. But I can't give it up and go to bed yet.  The Voice was on earlier and I am dire need to watch it or so I think.  Then Sons of Anarchy is recording on my DVR as I type. (What we did before DVR, I have no idea) 

So I am sleepy! My 1 year old Monkey slept all night for once in I don't know how long so no sleeping on the couch for me last night, but......
then there was a storm...
and my 5 year old is scare of storms...
which do not go together when it is time to sleep...
so guess who climbed in our bed around 4 a.m.
Yep the 5 year old Jacer. My husband and my boys are all like saunas when they sleep and I couldn't take it very long, so I went to Jacer's bed and slept.  Got up at 5:45 am, dealt with Jillian MIchaels 30 day shred.  Have ate healthy all day.  Did 30 minute upper body class at the gym and then stuck around town and did 15 minutes of running on the treadmill and then the first night of Kickboxing at the Gym.  Which is good, just not a great time of the night for me and my family and our routines.

Well I am about ready to crash!

Good night and MUAHHH!